A Parent's Diary

Someone said that “ giving love without expectation ” made me stop and think. Is this what I have been doing all my life? I give, I serve, I endure everything without expecting anything back as a reward. The bible says, God is Love. People say love stinks, love hurts, love is painful, love is patient, love is impossible. But what about love without expectations? It means to me that I do the things that others want me to do, or ask me to do, or tell me to do, without expecting anything back. Does this make me gullible? Does this make me stupid? Does this make me a person who can not say no? I ponder on what this really means and how it affects my life and those that are around me.  Do we stop giving love because someone does not have the same mindset as you?  Do we stop giving love even though God says to love one another no matter what?  Do we stop giving love to those who get on our nerves every day?  Do we stop giving love because people don't listen to what we hav...

Where do I begin? Where does it end? When does the petty bickering become a lesson of life to be learned? When will they know that they have each other, and no one will be there for them except each other? When does parenting end? We all know when it begins, but when do we as parents know when it is time to let go and leave it to them? Grown adult children can be a blessing, but they can also be a burden. Especially when they don't take it upon themselves to grow up and make decisions on their own. We guide, protect, and nurture for as long as a parent can possibly can, but who are we when it ends? Who have I become to them, besides their mom? 

 Have you ever felt uninspired? A bursting feeling of thoughts and ideas rages through your mind, but you just can not move beyond those thoughts and ideas. I feel stuck and uninspired to move forward. To begin a new chapter in my life takes courage, will power, and a lot of insight and maybe a little instinct. It is hard to think of step one, step two, and going on, because I feel stuck in my thoughts and ideas. I ask myself why? I ask myself what happened to make me feel uninspired. Ask myself how I can feel inspired again to make things happen.